(trigger warning: invasive thoughts) Terrible at this

I'm fucking terrible at this.

I'm fucking terrible at playing human.

I'm terrible at words, terrible at feelings.

I'm terrible at playing.

Earth is beautiful, I play within it, but then why am I so terrible in it?

I wish I were dead, in this beautiful place, that I am so terrible in.

I hate it.

I hate myself.

I hate my breath.

How i wish. I .were. dead.