Renewed

I wished I could conform;

look away.

Act like robot in that way,

More blank stares, less interaction. 

But I can't. 

I have to set the boundaries. 

Speak my mind; from my heart. 

I can't say it any louder. 

I have to push you away. 

I have to say no more.  

I can't continue on. 

Feeling like my world was not falling apart. 

Well, here I am, vulnerable. 

Alone.

But glowing with a neon glow. 

Brand new.

Even as I grow up, renewed. 

ideas -

What do our times look like? Unique? Or have we heard the hate speech before? Have we seen the violence in the streets? How about what's happening in the schools?


We see it, we hear it , you live it.

Society's reality, technology, has forced us to face the fears of what happens in real life.

NO longer do textbooks teach us what cruelty looked like.

 Be it the neighbor, the nation, the world...hate is everywhere.

When will this bubble burst?

Or will you see the world for what it truly is....

A beautiful planet, rotating with an exact gracefulness, growing and evolving.

...to allow ourselves to take a step back.

Instead of just react.

Perhaps then, you'd be here, instead (Helder).












Take the opportunity to make this one count.  In any way YOU can.




Humanity reacts, redirects and continues to fight with anger. Thoughts are uttered last.

Often without thought.



Too many people die by heartless people shooting, as they race on by.

Affecting the life of those they may never encounter. Through law or lawlessness:

...We turn the guns on each other.

We apply pressure to an object already triggered by emotions.

A bloodbath, to even the score.



Nor can they distort the knowledge to suit their end game

Kobe

Kobe, 

To keep things positive can take a tremendous amount of grit. 

To dig within and find a place where resolution resides.

When things just feel unbearable.

I allowed my life to consume my soul. 

To feed my ego my own lack of empathy.

I had to take a step back and find balance. 

It takes a village is an understatement. 

The village should envelop us all.  

Kobe, through your determination and fortitude you amassed positivity.

Your image and words have shaped young and old. 

Given them hope to leave a legacy. 

To take small bites out of life. 

And savor the now. 

Through your work ethic and later in life as a father, 

you taught others to grow. 

Turning a leaf and making it consistent isn't easy. 

But one day a time, savoring the small victories, can lead to greatness.

I'm on a road I've never traversed. Of less choppy waters.

I worry the bubble will burst, 

but like you've said, I need to take small bites out of it, and savor my life.

(Trigger warning - intrusive thoughts) chemicals in my brain

I have a problem

it's in my head


I am female.

And that brings me down,

Having a period is awful,

but I realized that's not my only downfall.


The days after my period are unbearable, too...

i'd rather be alone.

I'd like to wake up, all alone.


I'm a shitty fucking person.

But it bubbles over from the chemicals in my brain.

I hate myself.

I hate my self.

I hate me.

I hate self.

(trigger warning: invasive thoughts) Terrible at this

I'm fucking terrible at this.

I'm fucking terrible at playing human.

I'm terrible at words, terrible at feelings.

I'm terrible at playing.

Earth is beautiful, I play within it, but then why am I so terrible in it?

I wish I were dead, in this beautiful place, that I am so terrible in.

I hate it.

I hate myself.

I hate my breath.

How i wish. I .were. dead.